LYRICS
Detached EP (2013)
1. Detached
I’m stuck inside this picture of me
Leaving everything that used to mean something to me.
You’re stuck in a frame that captures you,
Holds your thoughts in place and your body still like stones.
I’m slowly detaching from what I built
And I can’t shake the feeling that it was meant to fade away
I’m trashing a place that I once swore to keep it safe until the end
Take a step outside your mind
and stop hoping the world might change for you
My bones feel sore, my head it aches
And I’m growing tired of all the same old talk
And everything that counted once
I’ll send it right to hell with all my angst and thoughts
What makes you think the world spins for you?
What makes you think the world changes?
2. Weak & Fragile
Speak up
Tell me what you really feel
Because you’re still used to hear him talk about the old days when you leaned on him
I’m completely aware what I’m giving back is never coming close to what I should
Bury myself beneath my talk
I can’t believe myself
It keeps on scaring me to death to see where this has led me
Bury myself beneath my talk
I can’t feel what you feel
And it leaves me thinking if it is me or the relationship we shared
I’ve seen this
Everyone saw it coming
You held fast on a weak and fragile memory that’s been fading Everything in me turned grey
The day I thought it’d be much fairer if I was in his stead
Someone curse me
It’s like I don’t know myself
I act like a puppet on a string
Someone curse me,
I can’t put up with myself
And what’s left of my apologies
More than I could ever give EP (2012)
1.Make This Real
Last night I had this dream of you kissing me,
„It’s been so long, Mikey.“
You know, I used to pretend that I hate you.
But I just can’t hate you.
I miss you making me feel weak,
The way it makes my stomach bleed.
And it sucks i can’t hate you,
It sucks I can’t make this real.
2. Low
I can’t escape and I’m stuck in this belief.
I just don’t care and that’s my problem.
There’s no future for aimless guys like me.
Until I implode I will over think again
And find myself between denying and defying
This sense of dependency and I just can’t flee.
These walls of water are crashing down on me.
These walls of water are slowly drowning me.
I’ll keep it low
You can’t deny the fact the way you act shows how you think
I’ll keep it low
But sinking straight down to the bottom with all of this
Trained myself so hard in learning to let go
This is the last song that I’ll ever write to you
But staying cold has never worked for me and I hope
you’re sure of everything you do.
I never ever thought I’d come to this.
I’ll try and face the fact that I have always been too sure that pretense is a way to get me by.
So I will keep it low
You can’t deny the fact the way you act shows how you think
I’ll keep it low
But sinking straight down to the bottom with all of this
Trained myself so hard in learning to let go
This is the last song that I’ll ever write to you
But staying cold has never worked for me and I hope
you’re sure of everything you do
I just picture me seeing you around
Cause I never felt so dependent on anybody around
Thought I should let you know
That I just pretend so I can see you around
Well this heart is sick of sad songs and lone walks through this town
I can’t believe I wrote this down.
3. 1022
Once again I feel a cold breeze when I look at your picture
I’ve never been good at letting go
When I hold tight on every memory.
I hope you’re better off right now.
Things fade and this is all i know and everyone does
But if you learn it the hard way, it’s harder to accept
I’ll face it, there’s nothing left for me to change
But these hands have never felt so cold and lost
and these eyes never had this empty look before
And I wonder if you can see the blanks you left
Not filled, just covered up at best.
Once again I feel a cold breeze when I look at your picture
I’ve never been good at letting go
When I hold tight on every memory
I guess you’re better off right now
And all I received until now is more than I could ever give.
4. What I’m Dealing With
Every cell of my body wrote the notes to this song
And every rhyme just rewinds what I’m dealing with
Been choking down my thoughts and begging
for the time to be turned back to this very moment.
I started losing track,
Covered my mind in black.
You took the spark in me and set my life on fire.
How can you move along so fast?
I never got the chance to say what’s on my mind.
Every cell of my body wrote the notes to this song
And every rhyme just rewinds what I’m dealing with.
You got no fucking clue what I go through
But you’re better off alone, better off alone anyway
How can you close and run so fast?
I learned my lesson: regrets are for the weak ones
But maybe this is all I am
I fear I need you more than you’ll ever know.
Please give me back my old life
When we could truly share nearly everything
Now I’m scared of nearly everything
By now I’m old enough but sick of hearing “nothing lasts forever”
I’m done with getting better
Truth is that you’re buried in my heart
You have no idea what I’m dealing with.
5. This Basement
This basement doesn’t feel like home anymore.
6. Forest Garden Alley
I just forget how to look forward as my house of cards collapses
I lost my way with words.
And it seems you left with everything I had.
Well, if time heals everything why can’t I still cut this out of my life?
Out of my thoughts and move along and just move on.
I spent my nights wasting away at Forest Garden Alley.
Right where I got my friends
Compared to you they’ve never let me down.
But I’ve heard all of this before.
So rewind your tape and give me something else to listen
If all you need is time, now that’s what you get.
All these thoughts seem so wasted
And I can’t believe this is how you really feel about it.
I can’t find a thing to replace it
Did you find a way or is there no need for you to change?
But don’t we all share this kind of misery
and let it define our all lives?
“It’s never worth the pain” so I’ve heard
but it still, it tears my mind apart.
All these thoughts seem so wasted
And I can’t believe this is how you really feel about it.
I can’t find a thing to replace it
Did you find a way or is there no need for you to change?
And all I feel is disappointment.
